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Thursday, April 14, 2011
Confuse @ 10:05 PM
Today I woke up, and I felt empty inside. This isn’t the first time this has happened recently. I keep trying to pinpoint what is making me feel this way, blaming it on the fact that i'm stress in study, then blame anything I could that wasn’t the truth. However the fact of the matter is, I’m feeling empty because i'm confuse with the person i love.
We met in the strangest way, and our time together was simple and yet so incredible. The few months that we spent together were some of the happiest months of my life. Every time we meet, I felt a kind of happiness that I can’t even explain and every time you left I counted down the days until I would see you again. I fell for you after only knowing you for a few days, and after that I just continued to fall. I loved the simple text messages you would send me everyday, telling me you love me and how much you missed me. I loved the way you smelled like cigarettes, I loved your tattoos, and I loved your smile. I even loved your friends; I looked forward to seeing them almost as much as I looked forward to seeing you. You were everything to me, the person who brought me back to life after I had thought my days of loving another were over.
I was so happy that it seemed like nothing could bring me down, but a fear that I knew all too well was creeping up on me, as it had done with all of my past relationships. I was now so afraid of what life would be like without you that I'm so confuse if i should convinced myself that everything would be easier if I ended our relationship before I began to rely on you too much.
We met in the strangest way, and our time together was simple and yet so incredible. The few months that we spent together were some of the happiest months of my life. Every time we meet, I felt a kind of happiness that I can’t even explain and every time you left I counted down the days until I would see you again. I fell for you after only knowing you for a few days, and after that I just continued to fall. I loved the simple text messages you would send me everyday, telling me you love me and how much you missed me. I loved the way you smelled like cigarettes, I loved your tattoos, and I loved your smile. I even loved your friends; I looked forward to seeing them almost as much as I looked forward to seeing you. You were everything to me, the person who brought me back to life after I had thought my days of loving another were over.
I was so happy that it seemed like nothing could bring me down, but a fear that I knew all too well was creeping up on me, as it had done with all of my past relationships. I was now so afraid of what life would be like without you that I'm so confuse if i should convinced myself that everything would be easier if I ended our relationship before I began to rely on you too much.